I have been wondering what to do when the inevitable does finally occur. I am reluctant to try the patience of those who pass by here from time to time with the minutiae of my descent into the pit. Perhaps I should just make my excuses and leave like a News of the World reporter or Scott at the pole, “I may be some time…”
I have been arming myself against manic depression with cold hard information. Ever since I saw a video of the neuroanatomist, Jill Bolte Taylor, who had a stroke in the left side of her very own brain, I could not get the memory of her very moving account out of my own brain. She experienced and remembered the process of her left brain shutting down completely, and the mystical feeling of being directly in contact with the outside world and at one with it- no sense of self - when she had only her right brain in action. The left brain is the internal voice that finds fault, tells you what you should have done yesterday and ought to do tomorrow. When I am depressed, that voice is not very friendly and turns into Bernard Manning's mother in law.
Just imagine for a moment…the silence…
Is this where meditation can take you, to listen to the silence of your right brain?
I wonder how to turn off my left brain and shut her up, just for a bit of peace now and then. Of course I don’t want to silence her for ever. I need words. But wouldn’t it be nice to just flip a switch…or turn the volume down at least...
I’ll go and take Porridge out instead…
But first a quiz that I did after seeing it at mrs chilli's, a woman who knows a bit about yoga I would say:
