Sunday, November 22, 2009

for every silver lining clouds loom

The boy with red hair is back. But changed. He is just here for the daytimes, and at night he still goes back to the psychiatric hospital.
There is an underlying fuse waiting for a spark.
He could not control his frustration that the whole music lesson was not focused on him. His body language radiated anger whenever he did not get exactly what he wanted. He hung in his seat like a question mark... and then put his fingers in his ears.
I have lost him for the moment. He says he no longer wants to do music. But he said it calmly.

I took him to see the house manager and explained that his behaviour had been orderly and that these were his wishes. The manager was so kind to him. "Yes, I hear you", he said. "But you may feel differently soon."
I hope so...




7 comments:

Zhoen said...

So hard, when the brain just won't work properly.

Mrs. Chili said...

Regardless of the reason, I always feel defeated when I encounter a student I know I can't reach. It's a loss for both of you, I think...

Dingo said...

I hope the boy with red hair rediscovers his love for music. Balancing helping someone with changing who they are is such a fragile endeavor. I hope the boy with red hair is back soon.

Dick said...

One step forward... I hope that the spark remains and can still be activated.

Lucy said...

I hope he returns too, but that he had it at all...

20th Century Woman said...

To do your best and hope for the best is everything.

Rosie said...

thanks all. I always feel how easily it could be us or someone we love when I see him...